What I have experienced from time to time

Every day I feel locked up in a prison. A prison of shame, fear and feeling awkward. I'm afraid to be alone with some people because they might find out about me...sorta confirms the things people have said to me all my life: a life of rejection and pain...so how do we live in the here and now? How do we learn to accept ourselves? How do we function in this world? I'm a Christian and having faith helps but doesn't mean I don't feel pain every single day!!!!